As the plans to go to Guatemala started, I was all consumed with Guatemala and was neglecting things here. Now, a month before we head out (yes, a month!!), I am completely consumed with things here and not really our trip. Either way my focus was not where it should have been.
This weekend it suddenly hit me that in about 36 days, Jake and I will be heading to Guatemala for 8 weeks. I have that many days to prepare and I have been out of my mind. Work, bills, relationships, a teenager are all legitimate concerns and things I should deal with. And I am not saying they don’t mean anything, but the stress of it all has been driving me crazy! I have forgotten the AMAZING journey that is right around the corner.
Yes, there is so much to do before leaving and it will all get done. Packing up our apartment, putting it all in storage, shutting off all utilities, paying for the ones I can’t. Try to line up an apartment and a job for when we return in August… That’s alot to do in 36 days! However, my main focus should be getting myself (and my son) emotionally, spiritually and physically ready for the adventure we are about to embark on.
Jake and I are spending 8 amazing weeks on a journey with our Lord and Savior! How many people can say that?? We live our daily lives in a routine. We wake up, go to work or school, then do some recreational activity, then go to sleep when we decide to. We are pretty confident of what our days will bring. As I have experienced on all of my trips to Guatemala, there is no routine when you are on mission!! Waking up in a different country, knowing your actions for the day will be determined as He leads…the emotion and exhilaration is beyond words! Just the thought trumps everything I am and will be going through this next month.
I am going to miss routine, comfort and even privacy. I might even miss the daily stresses that we often take for granted, but all that means nothing now. We are going on a REAL LIFE JOURNEY and God has chosen us to serve Him in a HUGE way!
Get me outta my mind and into Your heart. It’s not about me. It’s not about me. I’m gonna start playing my part in Your design. Now is the time. There’s a bigger picture on display and it’s starting to come in focus causing me to see to see the ones in need outside my little world. Doesn’t matter what it takes, I wanna lead them all to You! Get me outta my mind and into Your heart! – Anthem Lights